Social media has a track record with me for being more of a curse than a blessing, Facebook being particularly brutal. However, about a month ago, my dad's nephew, Felix, contacted me and asked me to pass along his number. As there is so much negative history between my father and his side of the family, we were all hesitant to reconnect. The ( Read more... )

It is so hard for me to ask for help. And after such an awful day, I just wanted to talk to my Mom. I wanted her t just soothe this hurt, somehow. Even if just a little. And her response hurt more than anything else that happened today, it just compounded the hurt that Dad had already dealt. So I smiled, thanked her, and sent her away ( Read more... )

I realized today that I have, in actuality, made no progress, emotionally or physically. I have been drowning in escapism. I throw myself into activities that provide me with the opportunity to step away from the issues that are cutting into me. And I'm bored. A little scared, even. I am definitely hesitant ( Read more... )